[ devotion ]

i think i'm going to make a conscious effort to be better at this. i recently read elsie's 5 tips for bloggers over on her blog, a beautiful mess, and have become incredibly inspired. i really want this to be the jumping off point to this whole re-birth thing that's more or less happening to me. 

i'll be back later tonight, fingers crossed, with some more updates! 

[ new spaces ]

these past few weeks have been insanely hectic. primarily because i got to cross another item off my "23 before i'm 24" list.... PURCHASE A NEW DESK!! who would have thought that a new desk could change my outlook on life? i mean look at her, she's pretty impressive. 

along with this fancy shmancy desk, i also purchased a new and improved desk lamp, and a couple egg-shaped containers for my pens, pencils, markers, etc... it's a weird feeling to be honest, i feel like i've got a completely new lease on life! which is a weird effect for a desk to have on a girl. but i guess that's just how intense i feel about a good working environment. everything feels fresh and possible and it's completely contagious! i've made so much progress on a couple projects i can't wait to share! 

[ card makin' machine ]

so i finally have gotten around to making a cd of all the joshua radin music i have for my friend shannon. turns out i was feeling the need for a creative outlet because i 100% went overboard on it :) i created my own hand-made packaging for the cd and i'm really happy with how it turned out! i hope she likes it too! 

gone overboard? maybe. but i had so much fun making this for my dear friend! 

[ a little light sprucing ]

so i'd grown tired of my old blog look and have slowly been updating it. so far i like the changes i've made, but who knows, there may be more to come!

along with the make over i gave the blog, i've also been working on my cousin's wedding invitations and refinishing my night stands. (images & pictures to come) although this hasn't been the best weekend, i've gotten a lot of what i wanted accomplished. this brightens this rainy day considerably!

[ "you're beautiful. stay that way. or i'll kick your ass" ]

so, i've been a little out of it these last couple weeks. this guy right here died a couple saturdays ago and i haven't been all put back together since.

he's my favorite. i was one of the lucky ones who got to take care of him and love him and be there for him on a regular basis. this is my great grandfather to boot. 96 years old. he gave us the gift of time (among so many other things that i cherish) and i feel so lucky to have known him, to have really known him.


heartbreak is really an interesting emotion. it's all encompassing. i don't think i've known sadness like this, well, let's be real here, that break up was pretty painful; but this is different. i miss him so much. i only hope i can leave behind such an amazing legacy and be as important to someone as he was to me.


i love you grandpa t. and i miss you very very much.


























p.s. he was the sharpest dresser i've ever known haha! look at that suite! he's favorite color was red and i bought a pair of bright red Tom's shoes in loving memory of him.

[ reality check ]

i spent this past week in the outer banks, north carolina. can you say amazing? so hard to come back home from a place like that. every day was so relaxing and beautiful. not that i really have a lot of stress going on here. i just started working and i live at home. not really a high stress environment.

while i was there an opportunity to see the boy came up. i haven't seen him in seven months. seven months. i can't even believe it. for about two and a half years we didn't go more than two weeks without seeing each other. i can't stress enough how unbelievable it is that we haven't seen each other in so long. naturally, i didn't see him. the depth of my disappointment is alarming and unsettling. i miss him more than i let myself believe i do.

for as relaxing my vacation was, i came home to a potential crisis. my great grandpa isn't doing well, and this past weekend was another really stressful and scary one for the family. i'll leave it at that, however the crisis was adverted seeing that he's doing much better now. *wipes sweat from forehead*

oh, ps, i made this today. my frosting skills leave much to be desired, but it's delicious!

[ new favorite ]

hello new nail polish! this is my new favorite thing, OPI's "who the shrek are you" and i'm going to wear it until i'm literally sick of it or completely out of it.

this has been a pretty crazy couple of days. i'll be back tomorrow or the next day when i have more time to pay the chaos justice.

do you have any new favorite things?