[ new spaces ]

these past few weeks have been insanely hectic. primarily because i got to cross another item off my "23 before i'm 24" list.... PURCHASE A NEW DESK!! who would have thought that a new desk could change my outlook on life? i mean look at her, she's pretty impressive. 

along with this fancy shmancy desk, i also purchased a new and improved desk lamp, and a couple egg-shaped containers for my pens, pencils, markers, etc... it's a weird feeling to be honest, i feel like i've got a completely new lease on life! which is a weird effect for a desk to have on a girl. but i guess that's just how intense i feel about a good working environment. everything feels fresh and possible and it's completely contagious! i've made so much progress on a couple projects i can't wait to share! 

[ card makin' machine ]

so i finally have gotten around to making a cd of all the joshua radin music i have for my friend shannon. turns out i was feeling the need for a creative outlet because i 100% went overboard on it :) i created my own hand-made packaging for the cd and i'm really happy with how it turned out! i hope she likes it too! 

gone overboard? maybe. but i had so much fun making this for my dear friend! 

[ a little light sprucing ]

so i'd grown tired of my old blog look and have slowly been updating it. so far i like the changes i've made, but who knows, there may be more to come!

along with the make over i gave the blog, i've also been working on my cousin's wedding invitations and refinishing my night stands. (images & pictures to come) although this hasn't been the best weekend, i've gotten a lot of what i wanted accomplished. this brightens this rainy day considerably!

[ "you're beautiful. stay that way. or i'll kick your ass" ]

so, i've been a little out of it these last couple weeks. this guy right here died a couple saturdays ago and i haven't been all put back together since.

he's my favorite. i was one of the lucky ones who got to take care of him and love him and be there for him on a regular basis. this is my great grandfather to boot. 96 years old. he gave us the gift of time (among so many other things that i cherish) and i feel so lucky to have known him, to have really known him.


heartbreak is really an interesting emotion. it's all encompassing. i don't think i've known sadness like this, well, let's be real here, that break up was pretty painful; but this is different. i miss him so much. i only hope i can leave behind such an amazing legacy and be as important to someone as he was to me.


i love you grandpa t. and i miss you very very much.


























p.s. he was the sharpest dresser i've ever known haha! look at that suite! he's favorite color was red and i bought a pair of bright red Tom's shoes in loving memory of him.

[ reality check ]

i spent this past week in the outer banks, north carolina. can you say amazing? so hard to come back home from a place like that. every day was so relaxing and beautiful. not that i really have a lot of stress going on here. i just started working and i live at home. not really a high stress environment.

while i was there an opportunity to see the boy came up. i haven't seen him in seven months. seven months. i can't even believe it. for about two and a half years we didn't go more than two weeks without seeing each other. i can't stress enough how unbelievable it is that we haven't seen each other in so long. naturally, i didn't see him. the depth of my disappointment is alarming and unsettling. i miss him more than i let myself believe i do.

for as relaxing my vacation was, i came home to a potential crisis. my great grandpa isn't doing well, and this past weekend was another really stressful and scary one for the family. i'll leave it at that, however the crisis was adverted seeing that he's doing much better now. *wipes sweat from forehead*

oh, ps, i made this today. my frosting skills leave much to be desired, but it's delicious!

[ new favorite ]

hello new nail polish! this is my new favorite thing, OPI's "who the shrek are you" and i'm going to wear it until i'm literally sick of it or completely out of it.

this has been a pretty crazy couple of days. i'll be back tomorrow or the next day when i have more time to pay the chaos justice.

do you have any new favorite things?

[ cap city : the after show ]

columbus ohio. a home of sorts for four years during college. i came to life in that city; really woke up to the person i wanted to become, and started working and growing towards being her. a major problem in discovering so much about yourself and growing into a different person is not fitting into that box you so comfortably lived in for so long.

i've run into this head on. my hometown isn't enough for me anymore. how awful does that sound? incredibly awful. it's the truth, no matter how i try to disguise it, how i try to belittle it, i can't deny it.

i'm well aware that the only thing truly keeping me here is my family. i recently read kelly cutrone's book, "if you have to cry go outside" and it really opened my eyes. it's a great book. honestly. if you're looking for some inspiration in your life, read it. you won't be disappointed. but after reading it i've made a pact with myself. if this new job doesn't work out by the end of the year i am moving. that's right. packing up all my belonging and leaving my security blanket to try and find some peace and happiness. sound like a plan?