decision made. i'm moving to columbus effective september 15th. i have a place to live. but no job. i have friends there, some i've known for years, and others i can't wait to meet... oh hey lauren lankford! the stress surrounding this move has sucked all the joy out of it. but i am hoping that as time goes, and the move gets closer, that giddy-sick feeling in the pit of my stomach will return.
my last blog was focused on feeling damaged and crazy. although i want to take those feelings and really learn from them and understand them, they weren't wrong. and i hate that. this guy that i had been seeing was in fact seeing someone else too. "one-woman-man" my ass. turns out my instinct is a lot more perceptive than i give it credit for. on the other hand, my eternal optimism and hope that people aren't ass hats, is starting to harm more than it helps. it's such a conflict! become jaded and hard? or keep this hope, this optimism that there are good people out there?
i'm working on so many things right now. little projects that, well, they make me smile. big projects like this move. and some attention to this blog. i really want to start and daily, or weekly series of blogs that i can share with you all. i'll keep everyone posted.
YES.
ReplyDeleteI AM SO EXCITED.
ME TOO!
ReplyDeletei am really disappointed in myself for being so nervous when i saw you in jeni's months ago. i am nothing if not a scarydie cat.
I'm extremely excited that you're moving back to Columbus. It's given me a little hope that I might get my ass back there sometime in the not-so-distant future.
ReplyDeleteYou are great as hell. I wish you nothing but the best. Also, I really want to see all these little projects you're up to!
oh thanks rachel, that was so kind of you!
ReplyDeleteand you'll make it back, where are you now? i'll try and post all my projects as soon as i can... i'm being a huge time suckage right now! no idea where it all goes!