[ cap city : the after show ]

columbus ohio. a home of sorts for four years during college. i came to life in that city; really woke up to the person i wanted to become, and started working and growing towards being her. a major problem in discovering so much about yourself and growing into a different person is not fitting into that box you so comfortably lived in for so long.

i've run into this head on. my hometown isn't enough for me anymore. how awful does that sound? incredibly awful. it's the truth, no matter how i try to disguise it, how i try to belittle it, i can't deny it.

i'm well aware that the only thing truly keeping me here is my family. i recently read kelly cutrone's book, "if you have to cry go outside" and it really opened my eyes. it's a great book. honestly. if you're looking for some inspiration in your life, read it. you won't be disappointed. but after reading it i've made a pact with myself. if this new job doesn't work out by the end of the year i am moving. that's right. packing up all my belonging and leaving my security blanket to try and find some peace and happiness. sound like a plan?

[ cap city ]

i'm heading to columbus this weekend for a mini vacation before my life is re-taken over by work. yes, that's right, i landed myself a job. as of right now the job is only a part time gig, however the owner believes it will form into a full time opportunity in the next few months. i'm not going to lie, i really enjoy being unemployed. i like having all this time to myself. the last time i remember feeling this way i was a sophomore in high school. after that art/design took over my life and i've been running on empty since then. as much as i'm looking forward to this new challenge, i'm also not exactly 100% about it.

i've been pretty exhausted lately. i'm going to the gym five times a week and then going out with my grandma about three to four times a week to visit my great grandpa. i'd never assume that going to visit him would be so draining, but it is. i can't imagine how the little lady does it every day; sometimes twice a day. i'm convinced my grandma is wonder woman.

[ my only work since college ]

here are more images of the portfolio i made for cp&b. this was such a labor of love and like i said in my previous post, i am so happy with how everything turned out.

on a slightly sour note, it is the only work i have to show for myself from the past nine months since i graduated. that's right kids, my old employment gave me absolutely none of the work i created and finished while i was working there. real nice huh? oh well...

my only true heartache about this piece is that i'll never see it again. which is agonizing!

[ fail ]

the month of march was not good to me. after a long over due trip to columbus, ohio, i suffered a crippling head cold for a couple weeks. after recovering from this nasty bit of sickness my great grandpa t's health started spiraling. my grandma goes out to visit him everyday, and i took to the practice as well. she'd pick me up and we'd go out together. i was her support system i guess? i don't know how much support i gave her, but it seemed to be a little easier on her with me there. plus i could provide comedic relief when she would brush his dentures... so gross.

i applied for a job with a company in boulder, colorado last month too. here are some pictures of what i created for them:

i made a "mini-portfolio" to send to them, did a french fold of the portfolio pages, and made covers out of a gray wool and leather. it was the first creative thing i've done since graduating and i couldn't be happier with the way it turned out! i also created another pattern for the back of my resume/cover letters. i've jumped on the plaid trend hard, as you can tell by the back of my cover letter...

[ MIA ]

my apologies. i've been traveling and fighting a nasty head cold.

i will report more later. promise.

[ a spark of madness ]

so after a week and a half of being a lazy piece of garbage, i am putting myself back on track, and back on a schedule. too be a little less harsh on myself, it was a medical issue that kept me in a general state of lazy, but never the less! i am back!so to kick things off i am going on a "applying for jobs & working on my brand" kick. until my website is done i am taking my URL off my resume. i refuse to put off this next chapter in my life for something i may never finish. doesn't make sense. i'm not giving up on the site, still going to work on it, just not going to have it be my primary focus. i'll work on it when i'm inspired and up for battling dreamweaver. end of discussion.

i think a lot of this has to do with my bestest of friends. she's working on getting out of a bad work environment and while i don't necessarily have a work environment at all, i do need to get on with my life.i can't keep doing what i'm doing. no matter how comfortable i could be doing this well... forever...

i know i've said this before, but i think my trip to columbus this upcoming weekend will reinforce my resolve to get my life back together. fingers crossed shall we?

here are some lovelies i've had my eyes on:

a marie antoinette inspired photo shoot:

this modest mouse poster:

and these AMAZING alphabet cups!

[ movie review ]

stardust = cutest movie ever!!

this movie came out a couple years ago, 2007 to be exact, and i didn't see it then, but let me tell you, it was worth the wait. i've been feeling pretty blue lately, not really sad, just disappointed and kind of numb. given what's been going on with a certain boy in my life it's not surprising really, but i'm tired of my lack of emotions.

today was the perfect day to be lazy too! my area of the country is in the snow belt so we are used to obscene amounts of snow. unlike the rest of the east we haven't gotten the apocalyptic amounts of snow; that changed today. no more than usual really, but too much for me to brave leaving the house :) i was very fortunate to have this movie waiting in my mailbox after lunch.

a-dorable. i can't stress enough how cute this movie is! and i recommend it to anyone looking for a feel good/slightly chick flick movie. it was suspenseful, charming, funny, and just completely lovely. oh goodness, it made me so happy! i am a complete sucker for a love story, and i feel for this hook, line, and sinker ha!

another new love in my life are basset hounds. good lord, i took one out to play with at our mall's pet store and my heart melted! she was running around the little room falling all over the place, tripping on her ears. it took everything i had not to break down and take her home right then and there. but having a highly allergic mother and living under her roof were reason enough to postpone my purchase. bad news. the pup was teething, so my hand is pretty scratched up and bleeding in a couple spots. whoops...

i really want puppies. but i have to wait that one out. for now, i'll go to the mall and play with the puppies waiting for homes.