[ recycling ]

i bought this frame about three years ago with the intent of spray painting it and making it an earring holder. low and behold. three years later:

everything i used in this little rehab was recycled. old frame. old spray paint. old fabric. i'm so excited to hang it up in my new place! three weeks left till the big move!

[ momentum ]

as to not loose steam i am posting one of the projects i worked on this weekend! now i can't take credit for the idea, ( i got the tutorial from design*sponge) but i can say that the steps she provided work beautifully! 

i absolutely love these little paper flowers, and so does everyone i've given one to. warning: this project took so long! i highly recommend hanging them on a clothing line or something similar to cut down on drying time! 

[ september 15 ]

decision made. i'm moving to columbus effective september 15th. i have a place to live. but no job. i have friends there, some i've known for years, and others i can't wait to meet... oh hey lauren lankford! the stress surrounding this move has sucked all the joy out of it. but i am hoping that as time goes, and the move gets closer, that giddy-sick feeling in the pit of my stomach will return. 

my last blog was focused on feeling damaged and crazy. although i want to take those feelings and really learn from them and understand them, they weren't wrong. and i hate that. this guy that i had been seeing was in fact seeing someone else too. "one-woman-man" my ass. turns out my instinct is a lot more perceptive than i give it credit for. on the other hand, my eternal optimism and hope that people aren't ass hats, is starting to harm more than it helps. it's such a conflict! become jaded and hard? or keep this hope, this optimism that there are good people out there?

i'm working on so many things right now. little projects that, well, they make me smile. big projects like this move. and some attention to this blog. i really want to start and daily, or weekly series of blogs that i can share with you all. i'll keep everyone posted. 

[ reckless ]

sums me up quite nicely i believe. it seems like when i finally have things back on track i completely derail.  it's one of my most obnoxious traits. after a bad break-up, i don't think anyone can be certain exactly how they will be effected. i know i had no clue. turns out i'm a lot more damaged than i ever could imagine. even though i feel stupid saying this, and it's not at all the same thing, i was minorly abused by the one i love. it's not the kind of abuse you can see or even talk about, it's the kind where the evidence shows up long after the damage is done. the core of me, more or less, has been altered due to his actions toward me. and now? now i feel like a crazy. reading way more into something than i should. assuming feelings that aren't there. all the things i did to compensate for being treated badly. what have i done to myself? 

onto more pleasant business. literally. i am in the executive decision making business now. i've put my life on hold for long enough. i've cleaned my wounds and patched myself up the best i can, and now it's time to move on. i've been pretending for a long time now that home is where i belong. that erie had enough to hold me. i love my home, but i can't stay here any more. i've made up my mind and i'm moving back to columbus. now i have to figure out when! 

oh, p.s. i do realize the contradictory nature of those last lines in the picture above and my previous statements! 

[ such a joke ]

so... in my attempt to "be better at this" i utterly failed. maybe i'm too busy for this? maybe i'm too tired for this? i don't know. i need to reassess what i'm doing with my time and how to better manage it. 

i want my hair to be this long. or a little shorter. 

image found : www.ffffound.com

[ devotion ]

i think i'm going to make a conscious effort to be better at this. i recently read elsie's 5 tips for bloggers over on her blog, a beautiful mess, and have become incredibly inspired. i really want this to be the jumping off point to this whole re-birth thing that's more or less happening to me. 

i'll be back later tonight, fingers crossed, with some more updates! 

[ new spaces ]

these past few weeks have been insanely hectic. primarily because i got to cross another item off my "23 before i'm 24" list.... PURCHASE A NEW DESK!! who would have thought that a new desk could change my outlook on life? i mean look at her, she's pretty impressive. 

along with this fancy shmancy desk, i also purchased a new and improved desk lamp, and a couple egg-shaped containers for my pens, pencils, markers, etc... it's a weird feeling to be honest, i feel like i've got a completely new lease on life! which is a weird effect for a desk to have on a girl. but i guess that's just how intense i feel about a good working environment. everything feels fresh and possible and it's completely contagious! i've made so much progress on a couple projects i can't wait to share!